By Ifeyinwa Kojo
So I sat outside listlessly and stared at a little ant on the ground. I don't know why the ant caught my attention but it did. It was scuttling around aimlessly and as my mind was in the same dimension, I guess we connected.
Despite its aimless journey, it was determined. Every time it met an obstacle, it will backtrack, change direction and move forward again. Sometimes it moved in circles, very fast, very focused. I zoomed in on it.
Where was it going to?
Why in such a hurry?
For some reasons watching the ant gave me a focus. I liked it and I wanted to help it only if I knew what it wanted. So I went and dropped some crumbs of food in it's path. There was no way the ant could resist that, I thought. At first, it backtracked from the food, then went and surveyed it.
I smiled. Feeling good that the ant would now settle down and eat or take the food home. In my head, I had helped solve its problem. The ant climbed right through the food and continued its aimless journey.
I was perplexed. How? How can it ignore the food? I scooped it up with a paper and pulled it back to the food. "Eat or take it and go home", I practically instructed it. It tumbled all over the food. It was so tiny, I was scared I might have hurt it. It stayed down for a while regaining its strength I suppose, and once done, it scuttled out again. In another direction but definitely away from the food.
I repeated my mission again. Scoop and drop right in the food. This time very gently.
It rebounced and again walked away. I made to scoop it again but the voice said to my heart:
"Leave it be"
"But I was trying to help"
"Let it be", the voice said again very subtly.
I let it go.
I watched the ant disappear quickly into the grassy part of the garden. I bet it continued the journey but I couldn't make it out anymore in the thick grass.
"Why did the ant reject the food?"
What was that important that even food would not distract it?
How could an ant have that mugh integrity to stay on a course against all odds?
Would I be that faithfully focused on a mission?
Am I able to really resist distractions from critics?
Am I able to be this determined to achieve a cause?
I gave this ant guy enough food to last it 2 generations, yet it didn't pause or consider the opportunity.
How feeble the human mind is and how stable the ant mind is.
What will I do to my faith if I am confronted with enough money to last me 2 generations?
Will I betray it? Will I keep my Focus? I have seen men and women sell their integrity for less and justify it flawlessly. I have seen giants fall over unbelievable distractions. I have seen blatant display of human compromise on strange things. So I let it be.
My intentions were good but they were distractions to the tiny ant.
Was it trying to get away from me or from the food?
Such determination, such focus!
Little wonder the "Good Book" asks us to go study the ant and be wise. Hmm.
I did and I am wiser for it.
Lord, I have learnt to stay with what's important and ignore distractions.
If it wont add value to the Bigger picture and the greater good. It is a distraction.
No matter how well intended.
I have also glimpsed the extent of Your Faithfulness, that You are interested in the life of even a tiny ant.....Nothing is too small for You to protect....Nothing! Lord I hear You. I have left it. And I am wiser for it.
This is Your daughter, I am focused and I am checking in.